"What an excellent day for an exorcism"

Matt's on the road. I can't say why or where or even when he'll be back ... I don't want to put him in jeopardy. But it came as a surprise -- I had half an hour to get the torch and Dremel and glass wrapped up, in his bag, and out the door.

Needless to say, it was the half-hour from hell ... besides getting him ready, I had to fix my hair, put on makeup, find shoes ... and take my meds. I scrambled to find all my pills, but couldn't find anything to drink.

Come on, come on, I'm late for work! And I've gotta take care of Matt, too!

All I could find was the bottle of juice I was having for lunch today -- Bolthouse Farms Green Goodness. Now, this juice has no fillers (no sugar, no preservatives, etc.). Just apples, kiwis, mangos, bananas, dragonfruit ... and wheatgrass, spirulina, spinach and blue-green algae. This is what it looks like:


It tastes really good ... but it looks like pea soup. Ugh.

Anyway, between the stress and the pills and the pea-green drink, I managed to gag, spewing green stuff and pills all over myself, the table, the floor, Matt's shoes ... ::grins::

I feel like the girl from The Exorcist.

::Sighs:: I can't not worry about Matt. He feels like family these days. And he packed up and left on his one-month anniversary here. I know he'll be back, but that doesn't make it any less lonely around Casa de Katea.

So in the parking lot outside my office, I gave him one of my most important possessions: my spirit bear necklace. I made it during a very hard time in my life, and it contains various gemstones for their healing properties:

• Jasper for grounding and to calm nerves;
• Unakite for clarity and logic -- and to gently remove emotional blocks;
• Agate to improve self-esteem and attune to nature;
• Jade for self-confidence, eternal love, and dream guidance; and
• Hematite for grounding, prioritization and dispelling negativity.

The shapes I used -- rods and hexagons, mostly -- were chosen because they promote protection. Plus, there are 13 spirit bears -- large ones to represent self-reliance and strength; small ones to represent feminine nurturing and the return to one's core.

Heh. Already I feel naked without it. But he'll keep it safe, and it'll protect him the way it protected me.

Lordy, he's already called me twice for directions. Goofball. How am I supposed to not worry when he doesn't even know where he's going?

Urgh. I should've warned him to lick off the last few drops of Green Goodness that landed on the necklace. Well, he'll recognize the smell soon enough. ::grins::